I watched a beautiful and emotional video on May 29. It was made by a wonderful man who goes by the name of Shane Bitney Crone. He lost the love of his life on May 6, 2011. Tom Bridegroom fell off a ledge while doing a photo shoot for a friend.
The video is called "It could happen to you" and it is extremely moving. A must watch from me.
Thursday, May 31, 2012
First ever
I invite you to read along as I bring you through my life's journey of self discovery. Not all my posts will be about me. I'll be posting about different other things. If I post something that you like, please leave a comment. I encourage you to.
Let me start by saying that my life hasn't been easy this far. To be honest, I don't think anyone's life is or has been easy. I've been bounced around from day to night and dragged through the days' never ending trials, just to be here today. Me. To be who I am today.
I have to say, also, that I've been tossed curve ball after curve ball. Each one hitting me harder and harder. I guess somewhere down the line, I've developed some tough skin. (Not tough as nails tough, but tough enough to withstand what life has dealt me this far.)
For many of us, the game begins at an early age. For me, it started as soon as I was born. Many of us go through day to day discovering little by little who they are. I was thrown into who I am from the moment I was born that Tuesday morning 21 years ago. A self that I refused to admit.
Up until I was 5, I was relying on my parents to tell me right from wrong, and good from bad. But the day I turned 6, I knew something was different about me, something that set me apart, something that was wrong, something that was bad. No matter what I did for the next 8 years, I knew I wasn't like all the boys my age. I knew something was up, and so did my mom and dad. They knew before I knew, before I was born. From the moment of conception. They knew that their first born baby was not "normal".
Now, I'm purposely skipping over the 10 years because way too much happened in those 8 years than I would like to tell at this time. At 16, I got my drivers licence and was doing well in school, despite the constant bullying. Fast forward age 18. I was left behind by girlfriends past. Left alone and forgotten in a tiny dark hole. I couldn't see light, no matter where I looked. No light, no hope. That is until I took 2 years off of school. I was happy, healthy and brimming with positive energy.
September of 2011, I decided to attend the local college. I met really good friends and they helped me get through some very small issues. But, one day I was suddenly overwhelmed with the same lost and forgotten feeling I had when I was 18. I talked to some of my friends and they suggested I talk to my mom and dad and tell them the truth. That I wasn't their perfect little boy anymore. I told them about me. I told them about the secrets that I held deep inside myself.
They knew. They were supportive. They still are. I thought I saw a glimmer of light up above my head in the tiny dark hole. But it was gone as quick as it had appeared. I felt a stronger sense of emptiness and loneliness than I've ever felt in my life. I dropped out of college and moved in with my dad.
And that brings us to today.
I will be updating my blog with the 10 years between as well as other interesting news of today's world.
So for now, May your love never cease, your knowledge ever increase, and your fire never go out!
Let me start by saying that my life hasn't been easy this far. To be honest, I don't think anyone's life is or has been easy. I've been bounced around from day to night and dragged through the days' never ending trials, just to be here today. Me. To be who I am today.
I have to say, also, that I've been tossed curve ball after curve ball. Each one hitting me harder and harder. I guess somewhere down the line, I've developed some tough skin. (Not tough as nails tough, but tough enough to withstand what life has dealt me this far.)
For many of us, the game begins at an early age. For me, it started as soon as I was born. Many of us go through day to day discovering little by little who they are. I was thrown into who I am from the moment I was born that Tuesday morning 21 years ago. A self that I refused to admit.
Up until I was 5, I was relying on my parents to tell me right from wrong, and good from bad. But the day I turned 6, I knew something was different about me, something that set me apart, something that was wrong, something that was bad. No matter what I did for the next 8 years, I knew I wasn't like all the boys my age. I knew something was up, and so did my mom and dad. They knew before I knew, before I was born. From the moment of conception. They knew that their first born baby was not "normal".
Now, I'm purposely skipping over the 10 years because way too much happened in those 8 years than I would like to tell at this time. At 16, I got my drivers licence and was doing well in school, despite the constant bullying. Fast forward age 18. I was left behind by girlfriends past. Left alone and forgotten in a tiny dark hole. I couldn't see light, no matter where I looked. No light, no hope. That is until I took 2 years off of school. I was happy, healthy and brimming with positive energy.
September of 2011, I decided to attend the local college. I met really good friends and they helped me get through some very small issues. But, one day I was suddenly overwhelmed with the same lost and forgotten feeling I had when I was 18. I talked to some of my friends and they suggested I talk to my mom and dad and tell them the truth. That I wasn't their perfect little boy anymore. I told them about me. I told them about the secrets that I held deep inside myself.
They knew. They were supportive. They still are. I thought I saw a glimmer of light up above my head in the tiny dark hole. But it was gone as quick as it had appeared. I felt a stronger sense of emptiness and loneliness than I've ever felt in my life. I dropped out of college and moved in with my dad.
And that brings us to today.
I will be updating my blog with the 10 years between as well as other interesting news of today's world.
So for now, May your love never cease, your knowledge ever increase, and your fire never go out!
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