I'm losing too many friends too fast and it feels like I'm slowly fading away into darkness. It feels like a piece of me disappears everytime I lose someone that I care about and love. My soul, body and mind are getting weaker. I don't know what to do anymore. I try so hard to please everyone, but I only end up getting hurt in the end. I call out for help, but my voice gets drowed out by the noise of the world. I try to calm myself, only to notice that I lose another friend. This vicious cycle that I'm on can't be stopped. The vicious cycle that keeps me from finding hope, truth, and love. I try so hard and am getting tired.
It's getting darker the farther I go on. I try to shine my light but it gets swallowed up by the darkness that's surrounding me. I try to scream, to make a noise, but my voice goes mute. I'm tired of trying, of compromising all the time.
I can no longer see the light, nor can I feel it any longer.
I'm losing my will to fight.
I'm... losing... strength.
Losing... will..........
Friday, August 31, 2012
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Empathy
After a recent encounter with this myself, I felt compelled to write this blog in honour of it. For those who don't believe, please don't read this post as I truly believe in this and in Karma.
It is said that friends enter your life from time to time. It is also said that best friends are for life. Best friends know when you are sad before you do, they know when you're calling, they think of you and you know that they are in your heart. It's said that even though you go long periods of time without speaking, you know what each are thinking just by closing your eyes. Some call this phenomenon a coincidence, others call it empathy. For some empathy means the ability to understand someone's feelings and situation without predujice or putting your own feelings in replace of others'. Others consider empathy the ability to tell when someone whom you share a connection with is hurt and you feel it as well.
In a recent encounter, I felt such a pain that only could have been felt by someone either being beaten or killed. Thankfully, it was the first of the two. One of my friends whom I share a deeper connection with than either of us know, recently had an encounter with bandits and was jumped and beaten. He is alright; a little shaken up, but alright.
I felt pain but dismissed it as just hunger pains. Later that night, I got a message from him to call him. When I called, I could feel a sense of hurt and worry over the phone. That's when he told me that he had been jumped and beaten.
Spirit doesn't like when we talk about our experiences like these. But, as I said in the beginning, I felt compelled to write this. As if Spirit wan't me to tell you all.
I do believe that there are people who are able to predict future events, people who can sense empathy, and people who can truly see and talk with Spirit. For those who don't believe, please don't leave hateful messages. Just take a moment to think of events that have happened in your life. Have we not all once felt something was wrong before we knew what was going on? Have we not all had a major sense of deja vu? Have we all not thought we saw someone who we were sure was there, only to have others say that there isn't anyone there?
With that thought, I leave you.
Thank you, peace. <3
Josh
It is said that friends enter your life from time to time. It is also said that best friends are for life. Best friends know when you are sad before you do, they know when you're calling, they think of you and you know that they are in your heart. It's said that even though you go long periods of time without speaking, you know what each are thinking just by closing your eyes. Some call this phenomenon a coincidence, others call it empathy. For some empathy means the ability to understand someone's feelings and situation without predujice or putting your own feelings in replace of others'. Others consider empathy the ability to tell when someone whom you share a connection with is hurt and you feel it as well.
In a recent encounter, I felt such a pain that only could have been felt by someone either being beaten or killed. Thankfully, it was the first of the two. One of my friends whom I share a deeper connection with than either of us know, recently had an encounter with bandits and was jumped and beaten. He is alright; a little shaken up, but alright.
I felt pain but dismissed it as just hunger pains. Later that night, I got a message from him to call him. When I called, I could feel a sense of hurt and worry over the phone. That's when he told me that he had been jumped and beaten.
Spirit doesn't like when we talk about our experiences like these. But, as I said in the beginning, I felt compelled to write this. As if Spirit wan't me to tell you all.
I do believe that there are people who are able to predict future events, people who can sense empathy, and people who can truly see and talk with Spirit. For those who don't believe, please don't leave hateful messages. Just take a moment to think of events that have happened in your life. Have we not all once felt something was wrong before we knew what was going on? Have we not all had a major sense of deja vu? Have we all not thought we saw someone who we were sure was there, only to have others say that there isn't anyone there?
With that thought, I leave you.
Thank you, peace. <3
Josh
Saturday, August 18, 2012
The Longer the Better?
So, I haven't updated the blog in a while. I'm sorry. But I have to say that I am very surprised that I had so many views in June. I was just looking at the stas on my blog and I noticed that in June of this year alone, I had 75 views. WOW! Thank you to those who have read my blogs. Unfortunately, none of you have commented. So again. If you wish to comment on my blogs, and I encourage you to, you can friend me on Facebook; Joshua Morrison, or email me at jdmorrison@live.ca. Just make sure that if you email me to put the blog title as your subject.
Moving on. I had fun at Pride Toronto 2012. Although I wouldn't do it agin, I enjoyed myself. The reason I wouldn't do it again is because it was just TOOOOO busy for me. I like crowds, don't get me wong. It's just Pride Toronto was too crowded for me. I had people almost puching me and I had people being punched all around me. You'd think that people would be calmer and more polite. But, nope!
I dyed my hair blonde and put a red streak down the middle for Pride, and the red streak is still in. I'm hoping that when I get my hair cut this month, that it will disappear. Here's to hoping.
I have decided to delete my profiles on all dating sites that I'm on. (Okay, not all. I'm trying eHarmony's site for gays, Compatible Partners. Just for a while.) I have also decided that I should probably go for my instructor's licence to teach people how to drive. (WATCH OUT!!! Just kidding.) Lately, people have been asking me to help them learn to drive standard because I know how to drive stick. True I may know how to drive standard, but I'm no legal teacher. I can tell you the basics, but as driving comes in. Forget about it. (See what I did there? Famous quote.)
I've been trying to get back in shape also. Whey Powder and watching what I eat. Oh, and walking more too. Hopefully I can get to my goal weight of 175 lbs by February 2013. That's my goal. Is it realistic? You tell me.
I have also decided that I should focus less on the negative and more on the positive. I'm working on balancing everything.
One last thing. I'm running out of ideas for blogs. I need your help. Submit your ideas to me. I will select one each week. Email your ideas to:
Subject: Ideas For Blogs
jdmorrison@live.ca
This time, I'm opening up the ideas to you. I've been having way too many brain farts lately. (Hahaha! Brain farts! LOL!)
Seriously! Have you seen the things I come up with?! I need help, DESPERATELY!!!!
(Who writes this stuff?)
Let me know.
Talk to you later. Peace!
<3
Moving on. I had fun at Pride Toronto 2012. Although I wouldn't do it agin, I enjoyed myself. The reason I wouldn't do it again is because it was just TOOOOO busy for me. I like crowds, don't get me wong. It's just Pride Toronto was too crowded for me. I had people almost puching me and I had people being punched all around me. You'd think that people would be calmer and more polite. But, nope!
I dyed my hair blonde and put a red streak down the middle for Pride, and the red streak is still in. I'm hoping that when I get my hair cut this month, that it will disappear. Here's to hoping.
I have decided to delete my profiles on all dating sites that I'm on. (Okay, not all. I'm trying eHarmony's site for gays, Compatible Partners. Just for a while.) I have also decided that I should probably go for my instructor's licence to teach people how to drive. (WATCH OUT!!! Just kidding.) Lately, people have been asking me to help them learn to drive standard because I know how to drive stick. True I may know how to drive standard, but I'm no legal teacher. I can tell you the basics, but as driving comes in. Forget about it. (See what I did there? Famous quote.)
I've been trying to get back in shape also. Whey Powder and watching what I eat. Oh, and walking more too. Hopefully I can get to my goal weight of 175 lbs by February 2013. That's my goal. Is it realistic? You tell me.
I have also decided that I should focus less on the negative and more on the positive. I'm working on balancing everything.
One last thing. I'm running out of ideas for blogs. I need your help. Submit your ideas to me. I will select one each week. Email your ideas to:
Subject: Ideas For Blogs
jdmorrison@live.ca
This time, I'm opening up the ideas to you. I've been having way too many brain farts lately. (Hahaha! Brain farts! LOL!)
Seriously! Have you seen the things I come up with?! I need help, DESPERATELY!!!!
(Who writes this stuff?)
Let me know.
Talk to you later. Peace!
<3
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