Pride 2012

So as you may or may not be aware, I have recently come out as being gay publicly on my Facebook wall. I have the honor and joy to be a part of Pride Toronto 2012. I will be helping out at the PFLAG booth in Toronton by Church and Isabella and then volunteering as a Roaming Ambassador to help keep Pride Toronto a safe place. This is my first time helping out at any Pride event, let alone being so open about who I am. I wrote a little speech for the main big parade to happen on Sunday, July 1st. It goes something like this: "Today we celebrate who we are and stand up against a society that deems us unworthy of marrying who we love. Today is just one of many to come that will change society's view and that will allow everyone to welcome us with open arms and say, " We accept and love you."  Today we march for equal love and for equal rights."  - Joshua D. Morrison I hope to see some of you blog buddies out there.

Predicting the future? June 7

How do you feel about the unknown?  What would you say if someone said that they could predict the future? What would you ask about the future?  Do you think that people can predict the future?

Those questions have created a lot of controversy over the past years.  Some people say that no one can predict the future, that the future is full of unknowns and variables.  Others say that you can predict the future.  Or at least see possibilities of one's future, depending on their actions and mind sets.

Over the past few years, I've dabbled in the concept that people can in fact see possibilities of the future.  Heck, I've even had people give me Tarot cards that I've played with.  The question still remains though.  Can people predict the future?  And if they can, is it set in stone or can we get a chance to change it?

A few of my close friends and family have said that they have been able to see things before they happen and then change the outcome.  For instance, my one friend went down to New York for a family vacation for a week.  They were supposed to down there from September 7 to September 11, 2001.  He said that on Sunday night, while at a restaurant he had a strange day dream.  He said that he saw the twin towers falling down in rubble and people were running and screaming.  He told his mom and dad that they needed to leave first thing in the morning and that he couldn't explain why but he had a bad feeling that something bad was going to happen.  So, his family boarded the plane to come back to Canada.  Tuesday morning, he turned on the news and saw his day dream on television.

So, was he receiving a "premonition", as they call it, or was it just dumb luck?

What are your thoughts on it.  Let me know in the comments, through Facebook, Twitter or email.

First Time Ever - July 6

So, Pride Week here in Durham is almost over.  Flag raising was on Monday and Pride Parade is Sunday, June 10 from 1-3pm.  And Pride Week in Toronto is June 22 to July 1.  Truly exciting.

I'm going to be apart of the Pride Durham's 2nd annual Pride Parade for the first time.  On top of that, I'm going to be apart of the Pride experience for the first time ever in my life.  Words cannot begin to describe how I feel about this.

I'm going to going with my favourite aunt in the whole world.  And I'm going to be dying my hair for Pride!  I'm so excited right now.

I will be posting pictures on my Facebook as well as Twitter and, of course, on here.  Bellow is the link to my Facebook and my Twitter name.  I want you to be apart of this experience with me.

Also, it's come to my attention that a few people would like to comment on some of my posts but they don't want to create an account.  Not a problem.  I will be including my email address as well.  So, if you want to comment on my posts you can just shoot me an email.  Please put the title of the blog in the subject so I know what you're talking about.


Facebook:  www.facebook.com/joshuamorrison91
Twitter:  @JoshMorrison91
Email:  jdmorrison@live.ca

Shelter

So I recently had a video recommended to me by a couple of friends who are straight.  The title of the movie is called "Shelter".  It was released in 2007.


It's about a boy, Zach who has to put his dream about going to art school to work and help his older sister Jeanne, his ailing father and his five-year-old nephew Cody.  When Zach isn't working, he's hanging with his buddy Gabe.  When Gabe’s older brother Shaun comes back home from Los Angeles for a few weeks, Zach and Shaun develop a close friendship as they go surfing together. Shaun, who is a published writer, encourages Zach to take control of his life and pursue his ambition of going to CalArts, a large state university of the arts. One night after surfing Zach and Shaun share a kiss, however Zach is not prepared to give in to his feelings immediately. Nevertheless, their friendship soon develops into a romance, while at the same time Shaun builds a strong bond with Cody.

When Jeanne learns that Zach has been spending time with Shaun, she warns Zach that Shaun is gay and to keep Cody away from him. Though his sister is reluctant to accept that Zach himself might be gay, both Gabe and Tori are supportive. Zach and Shaun's relationship is then strained by his sense of obligation to support his family versus his relationship with Shaun and his desire to pursue his own dreams. Zach is confused as to what he really wants.

Shaun secretly submits Zach's art school application, and Zach is eventually accepted on full scholarship. When Jeanne's boyfriend Alan gets a job in Portland, requiring her to move and leave Cody behind with Zach, Zach is forced to decide between putting others first and neglecting his own dreams—as he has always done—and fighting for what he truly wants, both for himself and Cody. He finally discovers that affirming his love for Shaun and going forward with his art career ends up providing the best solution to his dilemma. The film ends with a scene of Zach, Shaun, and Cody playing together on the beach as a family.

It's a good movie.  When you get a chance, I recommend it to all.  

Is this real?

Okay, so I've been talking to this guy for a while now and I think it's going good. We have some similar interests and we seem to be hitting things off. This is the first guy that I've actually talked to since coming out and I feel something between us. He's hinted a couple of times that he's going out on dates and I feel a weird feeling. A feeling of dumbfoundedness and, I guess you could call it jealousy. We've been talking for the past month and a bit and, as I said before, I feel something between us but when he tells me he's going out I sometimes ask myself if what I feel is real. I'm asking for help. I need to help figuring out if what I'm feeling for this guy is real love or if it's just lust. I use the word love because I think that's what I'm feeling for him. Is this for real, real love or just lust?

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Sorry for the late post.  I can explain.  

I've been deep in thought.  I have been since I got back from visiting my grandma at 10 pm.  I was just thinking about how far along I've come in my life.  Hiding from the bullies that I faced walking home everyday after school and hiding from myself.  I always thought that I was being who I truly am.  But it was all a lie.

Every night when I came home from school, I would sit in my room and wonder what it would be like to just disappear from the world.  What it would feel like if I just went to sleep and never woke up.  It wasn't that long ago either.  Maybe about 4 or 5 years ago.

Since I've come out, things have changed.  I see the world in a different light now.  I see now that I was hiding from being who I am, not because I wanted to fit in with all the "normal" boys.  But from the truth.  I was afraid of what I would become if I admitted to myself outloud, that I was gay.  That from the moment of conception, my life was different than the other boys. I am gay.

I have to say that I am appalled at myself and some of my family.  Appalled at myself because I knew I was gay when I was 6.  True, that may be a little too early to know for sure.  But I knew then and it took me 15 years to admit and accept it.  And appalled at some of my family because they still can't see me for who I am.  I still have some of them asking me if I'm sure.  Well of course I'm sure.  It's not a decision that I made one morning.  It's not like I woke up one day and said to myself, "Hey.  I think I'm going to be something that has hate speech and people's ignorance attached to it.  I think I'm going to swim against the current."

No.  It's who I am.  If you can't accept that, then I don't need your negative attitude.  Yes it may take some time for some people to come to terms that their brother, cousin, nephew and grandson isn't going to marry a girl.  But if you have to keep asking if I'm sure that I'm gay, then, and I'm sorry if this sounds mean and harsh and intolerant, but I don't need you in my life right now.

I'm happy with who I am.  I'm happy now that I've embraced the truth about myself.  I'm happy that I no longer have that gnawing voice in my head who's always doubting every decision that I make.  I'm happy with just being me.

It Gets Better

Growing up, I knew I was different.  I was bullied and picked on for being different.  I believed the words that were thrown at me day after day as I walked down the halls at school.  I was even hung out a window one day at school for being different.  I believed that I wasn't society's definition of "normal".  For not being one of the heterosexuals, that I wasn't going to be loved by anyone.  And even the words that were thrown at me by my mother's religion.  I was told by her day after day that being homosexual was a sin and that homosexuals would die in the judgement of God.

I went through my teenage years questioning my sexuality.  I decided, with some help from friends, to come out to my family.  So on February 29, 2012, I decided to come out.  Since I've come out, things have gotten better.  I'm here to say that things get better.

Things do get better.  Check out the Trevor project, or call Kids Help Phone.  Call 1-888-668-6868 and follow the link bellow to a video for the Trevor project.

It gets better.

http://youtu.be/hQk7ZHPTcQI

Sigourney Weaver

Recently I watched Sigourney Weaver who portrayed Mary Griffith in "Prayers For Bobby", a movie about Bobby Griffith.  Bobby Griffith commited suicide due to his mother's righteous intolerance for the word "gay". 

After Mary lost her son, she undergoes a life changing experience as she explores the world that her son was apart of. 

That is only a small portion of what the movie is truly about.  It is a wonderful movie and I recommend it to all.  Please pay attention to it as it brings you through the emotions and ups and downs of the Griffith family.